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[18 Jan 2009|10:26am] |
sooo.. i made a new livejournal a whiiiiiile ago, but it had a new setup and was really pissing me offf because i couldn't figure out how the fuck to change it to the way i wanted. but AHA! i finally fucking did and i am super excited now. add me! ![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif?v=91.7) badfiish_xx
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[14 Jan 2009|07:48pm] |
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It's probably a little late for this, but whatever.
Did anyone make new years resolutions? I suppose I should, but I'm not really sure what.. Hm. Better late than never I guess.
1. work harder in school i guess is a big one for me.. i try as hard as i can most of the time but randomly i just hit a shitty week and i just stop doing everything. i already know for a fact i'm graduating in june so i suppose it doesn't really matter as much anymore..haha..but it's more of a thing for myself.
2. save my money! i need to stop shopping. it's sad because its getting closer to summer and i love summer clothes and bathing suits and all sorts of lovely things and i'm a shopaholic but i need to save as much as possible for soo many things. i found four or five waaay cute sun dresses i want from delias but i am trying to resist as hard as i can.
3. stop dealin with bull shit. i really haven't been, except shit at the beginning of the year with my bitchhh bridget and sam craft. nate's been involved with all this drama shit and its stresssin him out, haha. so i'm glad i'm gettin past that. i guess i've just realized that none of this shit matters in the end and all i want is peacefulness with myself.
4. get out moree. i am sooo sick of being in the house all the time! haha, so of course i need to get my license and shit, but i need to spend more time with my friends. sometimes i'll make plans and then cancel them because for some reason i feel like just being by myself. which is good sometimes but forrreal i need to spend more time with people. especially since there's a possibility i won't be seeing much of certain people after graduation. soo crazy to think about, but its true. most of these people i will be jumping for joy because i won't ever have to see them again! aah! i guess the people that really matter most are the ones that will still be in my life afterwards. i just hate connecticut because there is never SHIT to do. i wish i lived somewhere soo much better...
I kind of feel like my life is a mess right now. I'm tryin to clean it allll up but its hard when you've got soo much shit going on. I only have three major classes but for some reason i'm constantly feeling completely overwhelmed with work. I just feel like I don't have enough time in the day.
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[13 Jan 2009|10:30pm] |
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this should be interesting i suppose.
01. Name: 02. Birthday:
03. Where do you live:
04: What are you studying/What are you working as:
05. What makes you happy:
06. What are you listening to now/have listened to last:
07. What is particularly good/bad about my LJ:
08. An interesting fact about you:
09. Are you in love/have a crush at the moment:
10. Favorite place to be:
11. Favorite lyric:
12. Best time of the year:
13. Weirdest food you like:
RECOMMEND
01. A film:
02. A book:
03. A song:
04: A band:
PLUS
01. One thing you like about me:
02. Two things you like about yourself:
03. Put this in your lj so I can tell you what I think of you?
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[12 Jan 2009|05:12pm] |
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Driving lesson was okay, no complaints really. I feel like I do need more practice though, but I am scheduling my other ones as soon as possible.
Exams soon..I'm probably not studying at all..Hah. I really don't care. I'm soooo fed up and frustrated with school. Long weekend soon, plus no school when I have no classes and such. It'll all be so wonderful.
Works going good. Didn't get to work Saturday because of the snow :[. I so far have 1000+ saved up for my car. I'm pretty excited because I feel like I'm managing my money so well, hah. Even though I desperately want to go shopping! Once my sister gets her car fixed though I am going to try to start working Mondays. Meaning an extra 30 or so dollars for mee. And what the fuck is this bull shit.. why did minimum wage go up to $8.00, yet my pay didn't go up?! WTF. BUllllllll shiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiit if you ask mee.
Our washing machine broke and I am getting angry waiting for our new one to be delivered. I have a lot of clothes to wash..aha.
Friday was awesome..worked a full five hours for the first time in a while, got my paycheck which was over $100 (!!!!), then went and chilled with Megan and Christina. Smoked a lot of course, then watched PINEAPPPLEEE EXPRESSSSSS. Which was the fucking shit. It was hysterical. If you don't smoke pot you probably won't like it or get half the jokes. However I highly recommend it for a good laugh.
All I honestly want right now is my license, and for it to be summer. Swimming, tanning, bikinis, parties...UGH I HATE WINTER!!!! There's nothing to do, (especially with this weekend's temperature not making it out of the single digits! whaaat the fuckkkk). Also, I'm sick and tired of missing work because of the fucking snow. It really sucks. Fuck this coldnesss.
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[08 Jan 2009|07:22pm] |
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whaaaaaaaaaaaat the fuuuuuuuuuuck. seriously, what the FUCK. who the hell are you to judge me when you know absolutely nothing about me? you may have known me for a while but that doesn't mean shit. you've never gotten to know me. and how dare you ever talk about me and nate's relationship, when you haven't had a girlfriend in over a year and you are a complete fucking loser, not to mention you do not know SHIT about us or anything that goes on between us. you've seen us argue like what, two times? which in my opinion is healthy for a relationship... not like you would know anyway. you need to get up off your ass and start living your fucking life. maybe if you weren't such a loser you could have gotten a girl by now. you need to stop treating everyone like shit and pushing people around to get your fucking way. FUUUUCKKK YOOUUUU.
i'm soooooo sickkkk of peoples immaturity. fighting about pot. hmmm. if you're in fucking high school, you need to act like it. forrreaal. fucking sick of this stupid bull shit.
blaaah. lifes annoying me this weeeek.
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[05 Jan 2009|06:42pm] |
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new driving lesson
possible snow day wednesday
1000+ saved up for my car
new speakers that WORK
my best buddy shaune sousa who can rap (myspace.com/solis203)
happiness at work
having a girls night
a fat paycheck in my pocket from working extra hours
raising my self esteem
new make up experimentation
happy boyfriend time
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still being alone
somehow never having time to see my friends
dealing with dickheads
and the cunt at AADS
exams in 12 days
falling behind already on a research paper
falling behind in all my classes in general
always missing the fun times
growing apart from the friends i have
missing old times that i know will never come back
blahh.
how can i go forward if i don't know which way i'm facing?
-john lennon
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[01 Jan 2009|11:54am] |
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2008 IS DEAD.
i'm hoping this year will be so much better. odd-numbered years usually are the best for me, as weird as that sounds.. but hey, i'm getting my license, graduating, and many other things. and it's almost me and nathans two years :]. 2008 fucking sucked. there were good times.. but mostly bad...fuck em!
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[26 Dec 2008|10:14pm] |
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christmas was okay. i got my hopes up for a lot more than what i got. polar bear pajamas that are amazingly warm, fuzzy lady bug slippers, two books that i wanted, care bear pencils, two shirts, a wonderfully fuzzy and warm scarf, a nice sweatshirt, a pack of sixty four markers, a huuuuge disney princess coloring book, loads of beautiful make up, new make up brushes and such, nail polish, new socks that were greatly needed, earrings, the cutest make up bag ever, mariah carey perfume set that smells amazing, some ornaments, little things of lotion, a new wallet, a bracelet, mean girls, halloween, and STEP BROTHERS!!!!!!!!!!!!! (the most amazing movie of ALLL time). i appreciate all the things i got of course, but i don't understand why it's fair that my sister and brother get everything thats on their lists and i don't. all of these things are from nathan, his parents, his aunt and uncle, my sister, and my parents. this vacation i don't plan on doing much. mostly because these last few weeks i;ve been really stressed, and i plan on picking up as many shifts as possible while i can, because i didn't get to work friday or sunday because of the snow. and i need the cash.
i'm so very glad it's vacation though. there are a lot of things i want to do and so many people i want to see. and also, how wonderful it's going to be with 10 days of no georgia :].
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[10 Dec 2008|06:00pm] |
i just got back from my first driving lesson and it fucking SUCKED.
firstly it was fucking pitch black outside and raining, so i could not even see the lines on the fucking road. i am never driving in the dark again. i can't see how far or close stop signs or lights or anything are. i need to get my eyes checked again obviously.
secondly, the guy was a DICKHEAD. he kept yelling at me. i've never driven in heavy traffic before, and he kept yelling at me for going "too slow". he was like KEEP MOVING KEEP MOVING THERE ARE CARS BEHIND YOU. well sorrryyyy that i've never driven in dark ass wet shitty traffic before. and he kept yelling at me because i "veer to the left" when i turn right, and because i jerk the wheel when he starts bitching at me so he starts to bitch at me more, oh and apparently i get too close to the curb. which in my opinion is better than too close to the car next to me huh?
and he goes " i don't think you should rush to get your license. you need to make your lessons months apart and get practice in between." HAHAHAHAHA. FUUUUCK YOU DUDE. FUUUUCK YOU.
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[07 Dec 2008|10:05am] |
it has snowed and i am not happy about it.
last night at work, this balloon animal guy made me a sweet elephant.
i need to go and get my haircut. i'm thinking friday of this weeeek.
thats all for now. i must finish getting ready.
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[29 Nov 2008|10:31am] |
I haven't updated in quite a while. But all I really have to say is things SUCK.
Thats all. Perhaps a better post when things aren't so sucky.
OH- but I am VERY excited for Christmas.
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[14 Nov 2008|10:05pm] |
Where to begin..
This week has been stress stress stress.
Firstly..completely fucked myself with sociology, procrastinated to the last minute and now I shall not be attending a town meeting because I have driving school.. (my last week!!!!) So that's going to bring my grade down :/. Which sucks times 4567489 million because my report card was AWESOME..best ever. I was really proud of myself, and I want to try and keep that all year.
I have been sooooo tired... There are seriously not enough hours in the day! Tomorrow I am sleeping in hardcore and going to bed early tonight.
I NEED A CAR. I have found the one I want! It's so cute and it was one I was originally looking at, and it's a used so thats always good price-wise... Yet I know it's still going to be so killer to afford it. Right now, I have about 500 dollars for a down payment and I know thats not enough so I'd be paying my monthly payments for about 4 years...+insurance which I definately cannot afford with Red Robin, +gas and miscellaneous and CHRISTMAS IS SO SOON... I'm thinking about getting another part time job for November-January/February time to save up some extra cash to pay for my life (currently thinking maybe Kohls or Friendlys..it would be cool to serve for a while to get away from hostessing, plus I'd get experience for when I turn 18 and am eligible to become a server). Getting this car is my number one priority. I have to pay for EVERYTHING--gas, insurance, registration, the car itself, anything wrong with it, everything.. (getting my license alone is almost 200 dollars! fuck!!) God, fuck every spoiled bitch in this town.. They must be soo proud of themselves to never have to know what hard work is. I'm going to be working my ass off every damn day. I just hope it doesn;t get in the way of school, because I'm really trying to have a good year... So if anyone has any advice on how to make quick money (a lot!) or the best way to save up for my car or whatever... HELP ME!! Please!
Megan and I were supposed to chill tonight.. but she is sick with bronchitis :[ so that's not happening.. Which kind of works out for me in a way because I get to sleeeeeeeeep. I have woken up late everyday this week, and it has just dragged on and on because all I've wanted to do is sleep.
I'm really nervous about Christmas. Its certainly going to be tight tryin to get shit for everyone.. I hope people understand my situation.
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[09 Nov 2008|08:53pm] |
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call me what you want bitch call me on my sidekick never answer when its private damn i hate a shyyyy bitch.
today at work this cute little boy wanted a balloon and when we asked what color he wanted he was like, GRILLED CHEESE! hahahahahahahahaha, it was hilarious and made my night. today i have successfully cleaned my room and i feel happy about that. hopefully i can keep it that way. i wish i was more photogenic and i wish my camera took pictures the way i wanted it to. its really frustrating me lately i must say.
me and nate also watched iron man today, it was actually unexpectedly goood. also, i would really like a hair cut but i haven't got a clue how i want it..but i think its definately time for a change. i suppose i'll look now.. god the idea of getting my computer is so exciting! i can't wait.
i really have nothing to talk about so that is all.
my name aint bic but i keep that flaaaaame.
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[08 Nov 2008|09:14pm] |
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lifes been hectic lately.. i've been busy and overwhelmed but things overrall have been wonderful..minus double ear infection + sinus infection...sweeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeet. i've been trying to get as much done as possible but theres only so many hours in a day that i have free. most of which are taken up by my sleep time, so that sucks. but i'm trying the best i can to do all the things i need to do.
megan and i hung out yesterday/today. lots of pot has been consumed throughout the week. my knees have been hurting. the weather has been quite nice despite the rainy-ness. i'm ready for a nap. lots of jessica-nathan time has gone on this week. driving school is over in two weeks!!
things i am looking forward to:
(no particular order)
christmas!
buying/giving presents.
finishing driving school.
getting my car.
making rice krispie treats with nathan.
getting my license.
buying my computer/tv.
shopping!
cleaning my room.
rearranging my room (its getting so boring).
seeing mommy's family at christmas.
seeing my sister's new apartment.
getting accepted into college.
that is all for now. perhaps a better update once i'm feeling better and not so ass-like.
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[06 Nov 2008|06:37pm] |
currently i am eating this delicious chicken mcnuggets. awwwwwwwwwesooooome. this week has been quite wonderful.
stayed home monday and tuesday.. chilled and shit, and then wednesday and today just flew by and i haven;t had any work. tomorrow i'm workinggg and then chillin with megan! suhhhweeet. my fries are kind of nastyy. my nose has been a non-stop fountain. i am getting frustrated because this seeeems like i'm stuck in a never ending sickness.
only two weeks left of driving school!! i am very excited. i'm nervous to get my license soon. it scares me.
obamaaaaa is our new president, i am VERY pleased with this.
my world seems like its going in the right direction this week.
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[03 Nov 2008|11:47am] |
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[16 Oct 2008|03:22pm] |
i start driving school on monday... blah. monday, tuesday, and wednesday at 6:30, and i have no idea how long it's going to last. i'm annoyed with it but at the same time i'm excited because i'll be getting my license soon.
i'm about to type up my college essay and send in my college application online. i'm nervous. i feel weird. i can't believe i'm about to apply to college. two years ago i would have never thought i'd be here. i've come so far from where i've been.
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[14 Oct 2008|08:04pm] |
i started my second book, and it is wonderful. today was nice, me and nate hung out. we watched prom night. it was kind of lame.
basically, i love how someone who i thought was my friend randomly just stops talking to me and deletes me off her myspace friends.. thanks? sorry i have other things on my mind than your ridiculous bull shit and stupidity.. i guess its for the best then. everything happens for a reason. i wish i had closer girl friends and all, but i don't think that'll ever happen. i really can't stand putting up with bitches shit. i think having friends is the thing that frustrates me the most. i never have time to chill with anyone in the first place, not like i really have anybody to chill with in the first place. i love bridget, but we rarely ever hang out. and me and megan always make plans but never follow through, which sucks i don't know why we do that haha. i'm going to try and switch my shifts from the weekend to during the week after driving school is over, so then i have more time to do things AND i will be able to drive which will be wonderful.
this girl rebecca at work is seriously a fucking idiot. shes kind of new, and she's more than likely going to get fired because she is retarded. she thinks that she can go out and have a ciggarette break whenever she damn well pleases and not do ANY of her other jobs she needs to get done, such as cleaning the fucking bathroom. i came in for my shift one day and there was not a single roll of toilet paper in ANY of the stalls, and when i tell her she needs to go and get on that she leaves. wtf? secondly, she just randomly never shows up, which is pretty cool. especially on saturday nights. we have this other new hostess who just finished her training. she's pretty chill, i like her so far. i think people at work are just nice to me becaues my sister works there. honestly i really don't think anyone there likes me, its all just an act. sometimes i feel like i'm going to get fired, even though i do everything i'm supposed to. i think its just paranoia though. so far, me and this total cunt kate do not get along. shes good friends with my sister too. she hasn't been nice to me once since i started working there, and what the FUCK kind of person talks shit about me to my own fucking sister? last saturday she was having trouble with her tables because she got sat twice, (wow) and i wouldn't help her so she got all pissed the hell off. its not my fault she can't handle it, and if she can;t maybe she shouldn't be working on a saturday night? yeaaaaaaaaah. so thats pretty cool. so now she tells my sister that i'm such a bitch blah blah, basically if you're an asshole to me, WHY should i be nice to you? definately not going to happen. i know in my previous entries i've complained how much i hate working at red robin, but i really don't mind it all that much now. i think it's fun. i think it was just that before i was new to it so it was stressful and all but now i've gotten used to it. i think i could handle it all by myself.
i really can't believe i'm graduating this year. ummm i realize we're pretty far away from that, but i don't feel like i've come this far at all. my grades this year so far are all ballin. all a's except for english and anatomy ( which is really hard and wtf she does not teach). i'm basically rambling and completely lost my entire point of this, so i'm going to read now. bye.
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[13 Oct 2008|12:57pm] |
this weekend has been quite productive. worked, which =moneyyyyyy. went shopping with mom, hardly got anything...got two books, one of which i have already finished. i also finished heart of darkness as well. i watched sleeping beauty last night, it was just as wonderful as i remember it.
i ordered some clothes offline with my gift card, and by 'clothes' i mean, a tank top, a shirt, a pair of earrings and a bracelet. i have 20 dollars left on it, so i'll probably order something else eventually too.
i also hung out with nathan. we watched baby mama... very funny.
i need to take a shower and get ready because i picked up a shift for today to make some more money. my computer should be in my grasp very soon i am SOOO excited.
also, i've decided i am way too poor to be glinda. hopefully that will change.
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